Here I sit… It’s quiet and still. Mornings with God are so precious. Hands down, it is my favorite part of the day.
A friend told me that she is reading, The Pursuit of God by A.W. Tozer. I have had the book downloaded for awhile now, maybe a year or so and per chance opened it up this morning in curiosity and to feel a part of something… or at least didn’t want to miss anything… We humans are so predictable. Sheep… bleating, bleating, searching for someone or something to follow and serve… Baa, Baaa, Baaaaaaa!
So I opened it up and right away, read an awesome and amazing thing. It was a prayer, timeless in nature, simplistic in design, but more valuable than all the gold in the world and worth broadening your portfolio to invest…
“O God, I have tasted Thy goodness, and it has both satisfied me and made me thirsty for more. I am painfully conscious of my need of further grace. I am ashamed of my lack of desire. O God, the Triune God, I want to want Thee; I long to be filled with longing; I thirst to be made more thirsty still. Show me Thy glory, I pray Thee, that so I may know Thee indeed. Begin in mercy a new work of love within me. Say to my soul, “Rise up, my love, my fair one, and come away.” Then give me grace to rise and follow Thee up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so long. In Jesus’ Name, Amen” (A.W. Tozer).
It is such a bold and profound prayer to pray… and yet, so elegantly honest. It is a love poem to a lover. Intensely intimate, I am drawn to it, so much so, in my fleshly man, I find myself wanting to keep it and my lover all to myself (Romans 8: 8). Hording the love as a jealous lover. Oh, wicked heart that I have, “I don’t do the good I want to do. Instead, I do the evil that I don’t want to do” (Romans 7:19).
I do thirst and long for a deeper relationship with God and have determined to make Tozer’s prayer my own. Did this prayer stir desire and quicken pounding beats within your chest? Now that I have shared my lover with you, will you seek him with me? Can we together, truly make God our one heart’s desire?
A friend told me a couple of days ago, it is a daily choice. Every moment, of every day she has a choice to choose Him and she is right. We must all choose. So today, in the stillness and quiet of the morning, “I will “taste and see that the LORD is good!” Psalm 34: 8. “I want to want Thee, but I am ashamed of my lack of desire…. Make me more thirsty still… [Jesus], “begin in mercy a new work of love within me [by giving] me grace to rise and follow you up from this misty lowland where I have wandered so [very] long”…